End of Another Tiring Day

At the end of the day, it’s always tiring; today is no different. What’s more painful is the toothache I have—it’s because of my wisdom teeth that haven’t grown properly yet. I am 34 years old and struggling with this tooth pain every day. I swear to God, it hurts a lot. Only somebody who has gone through this phase can understand. Others can only imagine!



My body is tired, but my mind wants to do a lot of things. I want to watch movies—real suspenseful or thrilling ones. Well, I don’t even remember the last time I watched a movie! It’s always work and work. My day ends at 12:00 midnight almost every day and begins at around 7:00 a.m.

Well, it’s just that I feel a lot more exhausted, especially in the evenings. My words stop—nothing else comes to mind except for the physical pain I am going through. I have so much work to do. I am so stressed. At this point, I just want the pain to go away.

It’s 11 p.m., and I just had my dinner. Now I’ve completed my other tasks, like locking the other room. I have two rooms on the terrace—one where I stay and the other as a study. My daughter has a Christmas celebration at her school tomorrow, so I’ve kept her clothes ready to avoid the morning hassles. It’s always a rush for me. Either I have too much work to do, or maybe I am not able to manage and handle it well. But I have to wake up early in the morning, at least around 6:30 a.m.

I should sleep now because, without seven hours of sleep, I feel extremely exhausted. But I need to prepare the PowerPoint for tomorrow’s online live class.

Am I just taking everything too seriously, or is it that I’m not able to handle the stress? Whatever it is, I have to prepare the PowerPoint now; otherwise, I won’t be able to take a nap in the afternoon before the live class. And again, my evenings would be a struggle.

So, on a tiring and stressed note, let me stop writing for today.


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