17th Feb?

 The last time I spoke to myself was eight days ago. Does time fly so fast or am I travelling on a time train as a daily passenger. So what happened in these days and what changed, well nothing changed so big, or somethign happened that I desired for. Life seems to be same as it was.  My daughter who is just studying in lower kindergarten has her exams from Wednesday (next to next day), well that sounds little sweet, but still I am focused on my littlle child as I want her to be her best. Well, my major concern that still bothers me is this house where I live in, the people around me, the atmosphere where I am living. I am not judging anyone, everyone must be right in their place, but everyone may not be compatible with each other. Its just what we are and are we able to stay the same in our circumstances. Simplest things in life can be a troublemaker sometimes. The simple desires we have in life may not be fulfilled always. Or either it is our choice how we desire to live our life and what we actually do. Well sometimes the emptiness in heart is so big, you never know what can fill up that void. 

I am for some reason not able to adjust myself in my in-laws house. I feel depressed and frustrated, maybe nobody talks to me in neglecting manner or anything like that. Not always though sometimes. But there is this something that bothers me from within.  I have never felt that freedom and being myself from the day I got married, except for the times I forced myself to be. 


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